Return to Nothing

Wow it's been a long time. Over a year. The reason for that is pretty simple, I have trouble coming up with things to talk about. One part of that being that I lead a rather boring life, the other being that I have little to no motivation whatsoever. I get the urge to write things often, but I'm much better at starting than I am at finishing. Anyway, the last post I made on here was about Entropy. Which is pretty funny. That was back in April last year, which was (coincidentally?) right before I had some stuff happen, which ultimately led to me stopping going to school because it fucking sucked. And the anxiety, which was probably why it sucked in the first place. I've always sort of had problems with that, and I don't particularly know why that time was so much worse, though it was. I have a doctor now, and I'm on medication, though to be honest I don't think it's done much good. I just don't feel much different. Don't get me wrong, I'm not on the verge of a breakdown or anything, anxiety just sucks. I feel like it's becoming more and more common, too, so I'm sure a lot of people out there understand. I haven't been back to school since then, I have a tutor and just do most of the work by myself. It works rather well I think, I got much better grades this year than I have in the past. The school thing is weird, objectively it isn't all that bad, but I think I connect it in my head with literally everything that makes me unhappy/anxious. So that's that, just the main stuff that's changed since my last post. 

On to more fun stuff, I should mention I've recently been uploading some videos to youtube. You see, some friends and I play this little-known game called DayZ occasionally (/sarcasm). At one point, I had the brilliant idea to start recording it. (Me and apparently everyone else on the internet. And their mothers.) I mix in our voices and up it goes right here. We like to call it "DayZ Delta Squad". For some reason.

We're great at this game!

Honestly, I really just started doing this because we like to archive our playing in case fun stuff happens (which it occasionally does), that we'd want to be able to watch back. Accordingly, these videos are pretty fucking long. So I don't imagine it will be many people's cup of tea. But, ya know, if you like long videos and DayZ you might like watching them. We suck most of the time, and sometimes some funny stuff happens. What more could you ask for, really? Other than that I have some Battlefield and GMod videos up on there, and this amazingly helpful Far Cry 3 tutorial I put together. So check that stuff out, you bitch. ...If you want to. I'm sure there will be more to come on there, too (especially once DayZ standalone comes out).

I love nature!

So that's about it, then. I'll probably make a post about E3 stuff at some point, because why the fuck not. Right now, though, I have some spaghetti to make. Midnight spaghetti = best spaghetti.